It’s been a while

Time does fly I must say and it has certainly been a while since I came back to my life of blogging.  First of all. I did get my stolen Chelsea lanyard back and yes indeed it was a very good surprise and I am glad it came just back to me.

Secondly, whilst I just enjoy and celebrate Chelsea’s double title wins during the past few weeks, many other things seems to weigh me down. Namely, the very one person who continuously lied and still does lie to me. I keep wondering and asking myself, could such people actually exist on this universe. People who con, lie and rob the joy of another innocent person and yet live as if though it was not their business.  It has certainly been a long time for me. And I think it is enough! I am not going to be a victim anymore.

Thirdly, I am glad again to do something that I have always wanted to do. And that of course is to get myself   a tattoo. It may sound nothing important to those in the west and I think I am a bit too old to get my first tattoo.. But still, I just made sure that I got this done today and be happy its in time with my birthday in a few days. I gave a lot of thought about this and looked at many options as this would be one that would remain on my skin for life. Finally, I made it simple. and I told myself that I should just get something that I would love for life. And that would most certainly be my favourite Football club.So Chelsea F.C, there you go. You are stuck on my skin as long as I live.

And last not least, I learnt today that I would have prevented a lot of heartache for myself had I just learnt to tame my tongue. I know I have read James many a times; but today, was a eye opener, I am now determined to tame the un-tamable – my tongue. I will also let not let my heart just dwindle over silly things that might very well lead me to heartache and despair. 

It’s been awhile – but its so clear now that you are all I have. And you are all I need to make it through and complete race. So please just help me!

Chelsea.. Why me?

After a crazy evening anticipating a tsunami I head home as usual after work
I leave my Office ID on the main board gleaming at the tag its my favourite English team
I take a walk along the main road for close to an hour walking aimlessly
I knew the tsunami was expected at 16:50hrs that evening
Time passes as I keep walking and no drama as the clock ticks 16:50
I give up and take a bus home watch the news have dinner a glass of wine
And then to bed snoring away as the rain sets in making me lazy and cozy
It’s another day as the sun does not rise but keeps pouring rain awesome cold
I am too lazy but I do manage to wake up and off I am to work
Enter the main doors and off to the reception to name board to collect my Office ID
All i say looking at the board is ” What the F####!!”
I am with my jaws dropped eyes popping out how is this even possible
I cannot breathe and yet I know this is reality
It’s not big deal to most of you as you read this
But to me it’s worse than a tsunami – Some one had stolen My Chelsea lanyard.
I try to breathe but only realize that I am breathing faster than I should be
Well, I make a complaint and everyone laughs at my sentimental behaviour
They can all laugh as much as they want
But I sure know the value of that lanyard that I got myself from Stamford Bridge!

The Brown Parcel

It was another manic Monday morning at work
There I was just sorting out my thing as usual
It’s a new boss and new work and all that in line
Was recovering from my bad weekends’ mood swings
Suddenly there on my table a big brown parcel lay
“This came in for you” says my new boss with a grin
Of course I knew about it all along but I had to pretend
Trust me! This brown parcel changed my day
I acted all calm and innocent as I can be
To buy sometime so I did not have to show my happy face
Not that I cared, but who on earth would want any trouble
With their new boss in town seated right in front of you
Well, I could not wait any longer than ten minutes since it arrived
Patiently I looked to see who sent it to me
And there I was with a grin from ear to ear
Cut open the parcel and dug in – first things first
Omg! Was the look on my face but I did not say it out loud
Grabbed for the little white sheet of paper
And my heart just raced so fast like a F1 girl
Oh.. I just wish the sender sent me dozens of these notes
Handwritten, so beautiful in the post on snail- mail
I don’t think I ever would have worn
Anything that of the gunner’s even if it was given free
But then again I realized that I have worn one before
It was of course at home and not anywhere in public
I am so very excited to see the other shirt that’s there
Desert colours – seriously I am doing the happy dance for a week
I cannot believe my eyes that I actually own one of these
It is a very rare and unique gift to ever have for life
I know I will cherish it for the rest of my life and the sender of course
So, thank you Dear sender, you out there!!
For sending me this parcel with many delights!

A little bit longer..

A glass of wine in one hand and the phone in the other

Will it blink or not she keeps wondering

It’s been a while since she last heard from him

The one who makes her smile

She picks the book, the same book that he too has

Wonders if she should right down something new

Clueless she is right now, just one “Hello” would do

It’s late in the night now, clock strikes 2300hrs

Confused look on her face as she takes another sip

“That’s a lot of wine and it should keep me up” she says

But her body is beaten up with the days tired blaze

She pauses typing……… (thinks for a while)

“Should I say something in a code just to check” she wonders

“Na.. that’s too much trouble, better leave it at that”

Takes another sip

Now switches on to a useless on-line game that she likes

After all, she owns a Prius on her cyber world

Good time to kill some time on-line

While she waits to start smiling again 

Stay with me Dear Spring..

The early morning breeze kissing my skin
I close my eyes for a moment and there you are
Just as I had imagined as a little girl
I knew that dreams could actually come true

Had I not been alive the next day
To be having your sweet presence all the way
Through one unforgettable expedition
I would have regretted it very much indeed

It’s easy to see and just take it as you saw
But then it’s another to actually experience
I guess sometimes it’s all down to one thing
The simple laws of attraction in this world

A smile can go a long way they say
But I only saw a rigid tired look
Who am I to judge as I guess I was the same
But now I know the reasons behind the scene

A helpful hand to show some kind assistance
Goes a very long way in anyone’s life
But I am not just talking about anyone and everyone
It’s all about me and how it changed mine

A little bustling talkative soul I came in to this world
Many a trial heartache and unfaithfulness broken
The very sane and beautiful life it was meant to be
Just withered like flowers and grass in Autumns breeze

It was a very long cold gruesome winter for so long
Had I remembered ever to smile again at life
A simple glance at the green ocean eyes in-depth
Changed everything in to something so beautiful

Now it’s like the spring time with flowers in bloom
Warm spring skies with beautiful sunrise
Bluebells beaming above mother earth
How do you feel just seeing them bloom?

I want the Spring and Summer to last
As long as it takes and as long as it could
For sooner or later Autumn will be back
I don’t want another long cold winter anytime soon

Looking outside the glass door..

I look at the open space just outside my work place
It’s just beautiful to see the Blue Lotus flowers in bloom on water
Dragon flies flying to and fro in the sun light
A kingfisher or two once in a while
The reflection of the small palm trees in the water
Is as beautiful as the green grass outlining the pond
I wonder what a lot of difference it would make
If I had a wall instead of these glass doors
I think I ought to be grateful
For this little blessing at work

Little fun things…

Walking the dog in the woods sounds fun
Having Earl grey with no milk and sugar does not sound fun
Black pudding, bacon and eggs, yes definitely fun
The cold early spring mornings sounds even more fun
With lots of pretty Bluebells springing up from the ground

Listening to “ Super Massive Blackhole” was fun
It was so much fun when you played it in the background
Or when you whispered “Running up that Hill” in my ear
I’m a believer on the band stand was just so much fun
I wish I knew you sang it to me though, on that day we had fun

An evening with you and tea and many other things was fun
Arm in arm watching vampires fight the lycans was fun
A kiss here and there on the ear was extremely fun
Under the sheets skin on skin was more than fun

Lunch and dinner and walks and hangouts were fun
So much of talking, we never got tired
Falling for each others minds and souls was beyond fun
The fact that we still are is amazingly fun

Now I’ve heard some sweet little things are on its way
By post, oh! I cannot wait to get my hands on them
Especially the “I am not supposed to mention” little token
Hopefully it’s got everything of you on it that I hold so dear

In the Morning you know you can’t remember a thing, so it says
I don’t think so as I do remember everything
Well what can I say as you are defintely too good to be true
And I will never ever let my eyes and everything else off you
Because I can’t stop this feeling I’ve got..

I think I told you…

I miss you like the deserts miss the rain

I think I told you so

I miss gazing in to to those eyes deep as the ocean

I think I told you so

I miss your warm hands in mind to keep me warm

I think I told you so

I miss having food and drinks with you

I think I told you so

I miss your arm wrapped around my waist

I think I told you so

I miss your sweet kisses and pecks on my ears

I think I told you so

I miss just talking to you, listening to all your talks

I think I told you so

I miss your sweet smile, missing you too much

I think I told you so

All the talks about cooking, dogs, snow, planes and whole lot more

I miss you very dearly

I wish I met you in 5012 so then I could just clone you

Keep you with me and send the clone back 

I think I told you that too

 

 

 

Find me

My mind wanders  through all kinds of paths

I wish I could stop, pause awhile, take a deep breathe

Ask myself the most important question

What on earth are you doing?

 

Some things in life look so right, yet be so wrong

You feel you are so close to getting there but

Only realize how far you actually are

It’s the truth and it hurts so bad

 

Do I punish myself for letting history repeat itself

I am just too tired to make a call on that

Do I just sit here and wait and expect life

To just fall in to place and be happy

 

Being happy is my choice, I know that

But, how can you not let your happiness be

In someone else’s hands, sometimes it does 

Happen just that way and you have no say

 

May be all this is just a little something 

To keep me going in this lonely world

Keep craving for something for myself

It’s always just too much to expect after-all

 

I am afraid to keep my eyes closed

For far too long, I might not wake up

If that happens, should it also be my fault

I hope someone will come find me soon

 

You on Independence Day

It was just another day passing by
I was thinking of you secretly
So much so I think you knew it
May be it’s because I’ve not seen you before

I have thought of you
For decades I must say
I guess you finally saw me
Reaching out for you

Finally here you are just falling from above
Pure and soft and gentle on my skin
Cold you are but exciting to me
A child at heart, I did become, seeing you

I put my tongue out looking up at the sky
Just as much as imagined it always
It was nothing much just ice-cold drops
It was good to see you – Snow!!!
I experienced you first on Independence Day

Reaching Two

I look back at time gone by it was precious time
Wasted or was it worth it- I don’t know
All I can be right now
Is just hopeful; that is all about it

Longed for your embrace
Your touch and kiss
You and you alone
It’s been a long time

19th is here and its a matter of days
I keep my fingers and everything possible crossed
Just to have that hope you will be here
Just this time cos we are reaching Two
I miss you very much..

Second Chance

Everyone goes on so much about second chances
But are there are really second chances in life?
You lose something dear and near to you
Will there be a second chance to have that back?

Someone breaks your heart and rips it in to pieces
You forgive them saying its their second chance
But, just give some deep thought if they do
Live up to their second chance?

War outbreaks destroying the peace and harmony
You wish you had a second chance to not let it happen
What are the possibilities that your peace will leave
When violence outbreaks over-ruling second chance

Can you ever replace a human dead and gone?
Near to your heart and memories engraved
Could you ever replace that person with a second chance
Another human could never be your second chance of the lost

Life has its ways with the good and the bad
But is there ever a way to accept a second chance?
Will that second chance ever make you not miss the first?
Is a second chance really worth its second chance?

Fly away

So much for the 60 days of building hopes – i feel like vapor right now
The day arrived and many days just followed
Am just gathering my courage to leave this nest i built
To fly away – never to return

I want to feel the wind beneath my wings as i fly
The big leap i take to jump off this nest
Leave all that I held on to reminding me of you
Fly away far away never to come back

I guess its time see new places and new faces
Start afresh and build new dreams
Can’t believe that am so high right now
So high am just thinking so very straight

But when it does happen – when our paths cross one day
I bet you’ll not even recognize me or know me anymore
I put my trust and hope in you, all this risk I’ve taken
Pushed my limits to more that what I can handle

I tried,I tried really hard and in the end
It doesn’t really matter at all
Cos you are not here and not sure you’ll ever be
So am just going to Fly away!

Only You

Its one of those days that I crave for your warmth – nothing else but you
Hard days work and all alone by myself thinking of – nothing else but you
I know you’ll have that hot meal for me, but I crave for – nothing else but you
Just want to talk my heart out with – no one else but you
Tell you how much I love you so – the only one and no one else

I know you’ll fix my mood with some delicious fruit tarts right now
I wish you were here so I can just watch you make them
A cup of coffee with you by the window looking at the setting sun
I want no one else but only you

My days and nights are going to be so much happier
When I have you right next to me and only you
It doesn’t matter whether you say a word or not
I wish a wish a million times just to have no one else
All I want right now and forever – Only you and you alone

60 Days

Time is ticking from this day on
I can’t believe my eyes and ears
Is it really true or is it my mind
Just hoping that this time its true

One year eight months and nine days
Since my life just took that turn
Every day has been such a challenge
But I guess its worth the waiting

Should I hold my breath or just relax
Do I need a makeover or what
Just a bit nervous all in all
Some wishes do come true

Sixty days I heard its on from today
Omg!! wow!! I am just so speechless
Finally! Oh finally its coming true
My wish is just 60 days away!