Good Bye July!

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Dear July,

Thank you for an amazing month which has made a landmark in my life. Many things came into my life this month and many others have left.
I bid farewell to my grandmother as she passed on to the other side early July. I had a revelation about my roots towards the latter.
And in between tasted rejection like never before. It was painful but I must move on.
I didn't know you had so many things in store for me dear July.
It's been a shaker, a maker and a breaker!

With all the pain, you also brought me some delights my dear July. The sounds, scents and sights have filled my soul with such happiness. The people I've met, new friends I've made - I thank you for all the beautiful things that you brought into my life this month, dear July.

Here's hoping that come 2020 and I see you again, I'd have some exciting news to share with you.

Thank you dear July - you've rocked my year thus far. See you later!

Much Love,
Dew of May






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Surprise me!

Photograph : RosheyFotografie

Surprise me with intelligent little talk
Surprise me with a some handpicked flowers
Surprise me with your sarcasm and humor
Surprise me with anything at all

Surprise me with some senseless stories
Surprise me with a handful of chocolates
Surprise me with a gift of memories
Surprise me with anything at all

Surprise me with a handwritten letter
Surprise me with surprise party
Surprise me with just about anything
Surprise me with anything at all

The Rejection Game

“No” she said when she was conceived her your womb
“No” he said when he realized she was with child
The first glimpse of rejection you both introduced to her
But she forgives you both as that is something she must do
“You’re not able to do this”, “Don’t be silly you’ cant’
“Don’t”, “No”, “You can’t do that”, “Listen when we tell you”
These were the words you pushed down on her
She had no clue what life would unfold for her
Strict rules around the house with severe punishments 
She was so afraid of him, so much so, more than she should
She probably thought if he was like this God must be a tyrant
Fear was instilled even before she learn’t her A,B,C’s
Life went on this way until one fine day arrived someone new
A little baby boy - She looked at him and said “You’re my brother”
She adored him and loved him with every beat in her heart
Not knowing that she was on level 2 in the game of rejection
Time went by and the discrimination grew larger than life
“No, you can’t cos you are a girl”, “yes, he can. He’s a boy”
Bicycles were denied, Swimming lessons were denied
“Learn to play the piano” she was told so she did
Years kept going and she had no clue why her sexuality was a concern
She began to hate herself for being a girl & very soon a woman
Her mother never taught her anything about the ways of life
She did’t know whom to ask – She found things on her own
A few more years gone by and now she started questioning
They didn’t approve her questioning their authority
She was seen as a rebellious teenager- a difficult child
In her mind she was strong and loyal, a beautiful mind
She did everything she was asked to do and time flew by
Many things came and went by, in her colorful life
One day drew near when she had a revelation so true
All these memories of a miserable childhood she lived
The spirit within her rose up one fine day into new heights
All these questions she ever had about her life unraveled
In her heart she knew she was a lover, an adventurer, a dreamer
She had become that being - survival to fight rejection
The spirit within her told her after decades gone by
The secrets which was never told to her before
She knew at once she was not wanted or needed
By the ones that birthed her and gave her life
She was perhaps not the boy child they wanted
She was perhaps conceived when they were not ready
Yet the first rules out the latter as she learns
That even if she was the fifth she would still be rejected
She yearns to find out from her that gave her birth
But she has enough wisdom not to do so as she’d want
Rejection is such a powerful force in life she knows
She realized that rejection = hate and there is no way out
To all who have been rejected at some point in your life
Just know that one may reject you but another will love you
For who you are and what you are and what you have become
Love covers all and only love from the heart can make you whole
Forgive, Hard to forget its true but try and Move On
We have only one life to live here on earth so make it count
Game Over - Rejection!

Thankful

Thank you for rescuing me from messes almost made
Thank you for always giving me a way out for escape
Thank you for silently watching over me all the time
Even when I don't deserve your love or attention
Thank you for that still small voice always guiding me
Thank you for the burden that's made light for me
Thank you for sending prompts of all sorts to me
For changing my direction every time I made it wrong
Thank you for the angels that always keeps on guard
Thank you for the strangers that come for my rescue
Thank you for giving me a big heart to love the least
For keeping my spirit away from all ill of this world
Thank you for the food on my table everyday
Thank you for shelter and roof upon my head
Thank you for friends and foe both alike
If not for trials I'd not be where I should be
Thank you for the many talents I have
Thank you for the ambitious dreams I have
Thank you for the hope of something eternal
Something to look forward on the other side

Farewell

Photograph by Pixel

I bid thee farewell oh lover from yesterday

I bid thee farewell oh worries of tomorrow

I bid thee farewell oh memories of old

I bid thee farewell oh dreams of gold

I bid thee farewell oh sadness and sorrow

I bid thee farewell oh joys to follow

I bid thee farewell. Oh! I bid thee farewell.

Tired

Tired of chasing after the lost
Tired of chasing pretty rainbows
Tired of self expectations
Tired of hoping for the best
Just Tired, Tired, Tired

Tired of being patient
Tired of being harassed
Tired of feeling rejected
Tired of feeling like a loser
Just Tired, Tired, Tired

When will this all end?
When will I truly live?
When will I see myself where I should be?
Other than feeling and being tired

To be or not to be?

Life throws all kinds of challenges that we face each day
To be or not to be is a question in every man’s way
It’s a choice we all have to make each day
No matter the outcome or what come may
Should I write to him or not?
Will she get offended if I tell her off?
Should I call off this thing that I have with her?
Will he understand if I said what I said?
Should I continue in this abusive relationship?
Or should I just walk away and leave him behind?
W ill she understand if I left her cos I can’t take no more?
Or should I just zip it up and bear it a bit longer?
Is this love we have really getting us somewhere?
Its become dull and boring, how long must I stay?
Should I help my friend who plans to this crazy thing?
Or should I just let him deal with his own messes?

To be or not to be? – that is the question! ” – WS

It is a question for each day!

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